Reflection
I have only encountered a few teachers who have been more like Abba Felix. In my undergraduate classes I had one painting teacher who was particularly Abba Felix-like. She possessed a sort of mystical quality and purposefully gave just enough instruction and defined just enough in terms of assignment parameters. It was so different than anything I’d ever experienced that I recall being somewhat awed. I figured out a tremendous amount on my own: studio skills, work ethic and many other valuable lessons having nothing to do with painting or art. At MU I’ve chanced upon a few Abba-Felix mannered instructors. My brain has seriously ached as I’ve struggled to synthesize some of the lessons learned at their hand. Yet, I cannot recall of a time when I’ve felt more satisfied and my thirst for even greater knowledge and understanding has grown.
The amount of objectivism present in my classroom and teaching today is a source of great conflict to me. My personal teaching philosophy is based on constructivism yet the elementary art curriculum in my district is based solely on skills. For our standards-based report cards I am required to assess each student’s performance on these skills. It is definitely objectivist to stand at the whiteboard and say, “Today we’re going to be learning how to use shading techniques.” (Because, in the back of my mind, that’s what you’re going to be graded on this quarter.) Sometimes I can embed the skill into a meaningful unit, but it’s a challenge. I agree with Parker Palmer, there is a proper context for teaching skills. I’m frustrated that it takes the bulk of my time to do so and the more I learn, the greater my frustration. Ideally, I want my students to be able to think critically and creatively. I want them to learn perseverance and to understand that failure is opportunity. I want them to be open-minded and observant. I want them to be individuals with fearless passion. I want them to be good stewards of the earth and to do right because they know in their hearts that it’s what they should do. How does shading have anything to do with life?
I read this chapter early in the week, and found myself confronting objectivism at school time after time. The PBIS (Positive Behavioral Intervention and Supports) rules for my school require students to follow a set of rules that are consistent throughout the building. Students are randomly rewarded for exhibiting positive behavior. While I am a fan of positive behavior, I'm not certain that this is the way to best encourage it. When one child is rewarded, others, especially the younger students question why they didn't receive a reward. The behavior isn't a thing that students learn to exhibit because they understand the importance of the rules, they do it because they are told that they have to, and, if they are lucky, they might be rewarded. There's an unnatural air of competitiveness, and I've witnessed many a student breaking the rules when they think no one is watching.